Easy on Me

For the last few months I’ve been hard on myself. I’ve been in sort of a slump. Certain times in my life I’ve gone through these feelings, but in these past couple of months it seems much more prominent. This feeling of being stuck…. Feeling of not being important or loved….Feeling of not being good enough.

As I write these words I think ….  ‘What does that even mean?’ …. ‘Why do I feel this way?’

Inherently I know that these feelings are not true, but to be honest it’s been getting harder and harder to shake these thoughts. Anxiety and bouts of depression have and currently do plague me, but in the past I would just ignore it or push it far in the back of my mind until the feeling passed. When I would get into these moods I would try and hide it because I didn’t want to feel like a burden or like I was complaining.

Some days are good, while others are difficult to the point of tears and negative thoughts would make me not want to get out of my bed.

So recently I’ve been wrestling with the idea of getting a therapist.

Being in an African, Black, and Christian community, therapy is usually frowned upon or considered not of God. It’s sad because there are people in these communities suffering in silence due to the stigma placed on mental health.

I say no more.

I’m speaking up because I know there are millions of people going through the same issues or are in even harder situations. We hide in the shadows with these lingering feelings drowning us daily.

The word of God says “faith by itself isn’t enough” – (James 2:11)

Yes, I believe we need to pray in times of anxiety, depression or serious mental illnesses, but that in itself isn’t enough. I believe that God placed therapists, psychologists, and psychartrists in this world to help us through just like any other doctor or medical professional.
It’s time to break the stigma….

…. I’ve been searching for a therapist and I’ve come across the following sites:

https://www.therapyforblackgirls.com/

https://www.talkspace.com/

Maybe these may help others looking as well…. And if you have other sites that help with finding the right therapist, Please feel free to add a comment.

Also, I think I’ll keep you guys updated on the process and check up to keep myself accountable.

Peace + Love.

I waited patiently for the Lord to help me, and he turned to me and heard my cry. He lifted me out of the pit of despair, out of the mud and the mire. He set my feet on solid ground and steadied me as I walked along. He has given me a new song to sing, a hymn of praise to our God. Many will see what he has done and be amazed. They will put their trust in the Lord. – Psalms 40:1-3

 

2 comments

  1. From one Becky to another–here’s praying you are getting whatever you need to be your best self!

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